Mid-Morning // Day 11
Meditation Time: Not Long Enough (10 or 12 minutes)
The weather people predicted a storm in Southern California and they sure did get one!! I was raging since first light and I think there may have been a little rain too...
Pissed at the weather - not because there was some, but because there wasn't enough. Then my space was driving me crazy - particularly everything, but most particularly my meditation/writing/sleeping space. Overwhelmed completely by my "stuff." (I mean that figuratively and literally of course). Feelings like - I CAN'T DO IT ALL and I HAVE TO DO IT ALL!! Feeling trapped by too much coming at me, even though lots of it has to do with my dreams coming true. Tired of moving things around to make them temporarily feel fixed - I WANT AN ENTIRE OVERHAUL, INSIDE OUT, UPSIDE DOWN, CLEAN IT UP, MOVE IT OUT, MAKE IT WORK - DAY OF RECKONING!
But not until after I have a cry in my robe on the kitchen floor...
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| Me in my robe crying on the kitchen floor. |
To be continued...
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