storm

Mid-Morning // Day 11

Meditation Time: Not Long Enough (10 or 12 minutes)

  The weather people predicted a storm in Southern California and they sure did get one!! I was raging since first light and I think there may have been a little rain too... 

  Pissed at the weather - not because there was some, but because there wasn't enough. Then my space was driving me crazy - particularly everything, but most particularly my meditation/writing/sleeping space. Overwhelmed completely by my "stuff." (I mean that figuratively and literally of course). Feelings like - I CAN'T DO IT ALL and I HAVE TO DO IT ALL!! Feeling trapped by too much coming at me, even though lots of it has to do with my dreams coming true. Tired of moving things around to make them temporarily feel fixed - I WANT AN ENTIRE OVERHAUL, INSIDE OUT, UPSIDE DOWN, CLEAN IT UP, MOVE IT OUT, MAKE IT WORK - DAY OF RECKONING! 

  But not until after I have a cry in my robe on the kitchen floor... 

Me in my robe crying on the kitchen floor.

   
  To be continued...


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dreamitation

5:37 AM // Day 3

Meditation Time: 50 min.

  I'm exhausted. 5 hours of sleep is not enough rest for this waking up routine, sitting in a sacred way routine, packing daughter lunch and getting her off to school all before 7:30am routine. Hey! It's Friday the 13th!! Must be lucky!! So tonight I'll be canceling all social engagements and going to bed at 10pm. Why am I telling you all this? 

*What a truly strange drawing akka, oh well.

  I sat for  a little longer this morning, but tipped over 30 minutes in - landing in a little lumpy pile like a half beaten egg. It felt good. It helped me let go... I saw some swirly lights then drifted into a dreamitation, (1/2 dreaming 1/2 meditating) not sure if you can find that word in the meditation text book, I'm also not sure that it wasn't just a full on dream state (I would like to think I was semi-conscious for). Doesn't matter. I liked it. Plus it makes me feel like a sweet lil' baby swaddled up like I used to be. Like we all used to be. 

How are you celebrating Friday the 13th? 

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